what a beautiful thing.

Its been an amazing year from getting to know my family or what little I have however you want to see it, Ive learned my 5 grandchildrens names and it feels so good to know They love me but to be honest just being able to learn and realize life again. You see for the longest time these things were taken from me and not just because of the accident or the organic brain damage that I had before said accident. I'm coming to understand the fact that I had Ben suicidal for along time before and after the accident, inflicting damage with the help of the devil,Satan or whatever you call the evil forces that roam around like a lion devouring and the more time goes by the more I come to realize it,he them whatever has beening at work on taking my life from a young age I just recently have come to grips with this reality that has cost me and my family BUT THANK GOD this thing I call the awakening is healing me and those that GOD places in my life or becomes a witness to the blessings that are so obvious. Its like we have been given a new lease on life and we DO NOT say that just to be cliche so please understand when I say THANK GOD FOR LIFE. Now that I have got that out can you believe its a year and four months since I posted the Daily awakenings, straight up I forgot I did on top of the fact THIS YEAR HAS BEEN CRAZY. I have been blessed with my own website on this thing called the interweb or something like that and have been healed of agoraphobia to the point we have spent days camping out going to the malls and traveling to see our grandchildren, its been AWSOME. As things progress and I learn how to do things again I'm truly humbed when it feels like the first time I've had ice cream or kiss my wife of 28years know that there's no way its the first time. If I can describe it like this if you could press rewind the first time you enjoyed some of your most amazing moments how awsome it would be that's it. Or how about when go to a movie and an hour after someone that went with you asks you a question about it and you have no idea what they are talk. be truly scary if you let it or how about you go on a trip to the grandcanon and if it was not for the fact that you keep a record of it you have no rec a lection of the trip. It will absolutely terrify you if you let it, that why we want to put this down somewhere ie: BLOGGER.COM or whatever you use(I don't think it BLOGGER.COM) but its so important and A BEAUTIFUL THING whether someone reads and responds or not because it ex cerises your mind and let's face it no one and I mean no one can do it for you that the beauty of it. I know there is a big chance and by the fact that no one has posted to this page in over a year that will not stop me from writing this BLOG HERE ON BLOGGERS. COM it just proves that_I have a lot to learn about writing and BLOGS in general not to stat the obvious either but just to learn again is what this BLOG is all